Leaving

Here I am my life has lacked involvement and I still don't write on this thing! I'm leaving for the US tomorrow so I wanted to write while I'm still in Malaysia. I hope to write a lot while I'm there but who knows.. I'll try!

Anyway, I've got stuff to finish getting ready before I leave so..bye!

Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

Words of Another to Fill for my Own Lack

Again life carries on and I leave you behind! My inspiration has been as low as my morale.

I know what's wrong the only problem is

my lack of drive and willingness to

accomplish what is necessary,

to return to who I'm supposed to be

and leave who I am
in the dust

forever

Then forever pressing on, I'm pressing on. I'll put all my inhibitions aside

cause I think way too much on a one track mind
.

I gotta get away, get away from all of my mistakes.

I've been a liar and I'll never amount to

The kind of person you deserve to worship you

I can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before
told myself what i need to hear
Putting so much stock
In all of this stuff
Live your life for those you love

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is.
I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Yeah, I'm not angry
And no, I'm not upset

Our concentration it contains a deadly flaw
our conversations change from words to blah, blah blah
and who I am hates who I've been
cause i struggle with forward motion
So rather than imply
Why don't you just verbalize
All the things that you're trying to say
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
It's taken me awhile
But this is what I've learned

I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten
And I'm satisfied to realize you're all I'll ever need
And I know that I have been forgiven
And I just hope you can forgive me too

You looked into my life and never stopped
And you're thinking all my thoughts
Are so simple, but so beautiful
And you recite my words right back to me
Before I even speak
You let me know, I am understood

I'm getting into you
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
if i had one wish
The love you felt for me was more than
The love I'd wished for all this time

All these words are lyrics from songs that I love so don't mistake them as mine. :) Mostly from Relient K.

Recent Events :) Star Trek!!

Man...I'm sorry I haven't written in SOOO long.. It's been a long while and I haven't felt like writting at all..

I mean come one what's wrong with me?? I've had some really great days I should have recorded and yet I didn't! I mean since I last wrote I've spent a ton of time with Apryl, I had my birthday, Mother's Day passed. I've been to Aquaria(how do you spell it?) with Jey/R2D2 and his Youth Group :). hahah!

Ooo you know what we did last weekend when I was over at Apryl's? Since your silent guessing would be pointless I'll just tell you hahah! We went to see Star Trek!! Yippee!! I wasn't a trekkie but I'm definitely on my way to becoming one hahaha :D. Greaaat movive all except one...ahem...dirty scene =.= have to go and ruin a perfectly good movie don't they?

If you haven't seen it yet then go and watch it :D. Since I spent that night at Apryl's house we stayed up really late (or shall I say not so early? hehe..) and talked for a couple hours. We figured out that it's not Kirk who's the main character of the movie...it's, for many reasons, Spock!

Yep, he's a lot in this one and I think he's a much cooler character than Kirk the ladies man xP. He's so...logical..no hahahah kidding, just sounds like the Vulcan thing to say haha. As for the rest of the movie I can't tell you anything cuz that just might ruin it for you! I think I'd probably give this one a 8 1/2 out of 10 :).

Well, let me now tell you a bit more about my time with Apryl. We went to the movie on Thursday (Opening Night!! haha Last time I did that was for Star Wars III) and got donuts at Big Apple afterwards :D (Note to self and anyone interested: never get donuts on a date =] haha!). After washing off the chocolate that got all over our hands and mouths, we left the Mines (that's where we were) and went to the apartment.

For some reason we decided we hadn't had enough TV yet and we settled down to finish watching an episode of American Idol haha :D. Uncle Aiman went to bed and we quietly took our stuff over to the other apartment that Apryl's family use and decided to be very spontaneous and crazy. Ah, the fun of being able to do nothing important and stay up super late because you know you can sleep in the next day. It's like eating dessert. Having it every once in a while is really tasty but to much of it is both sickening and makes you fat and sluggish XD.

We sank into the black couch and decided to watch a Bollywood movie. By now the time would probably have been somewhere around 11 PM. Yeah, I know what you're thinking. Bollywood?? Those shows last for around 3 hours don't they? Well, they do. We were just going to watch it until the intermission came. The only problem is that it never came. We were about 3/4ths of the way through when we figured that out and we just finished the movie.

If you do the math you probably realized what time it was by then. We still hadn't had enough for one night. We got all ready for bed and then talked for another couple hours before we turned out the lights and talked ourselves to sleep. *Sigh* What a day :). We slept in until 2 the next day (can't exactly say morning can I?) and I got up with a sense of extreme vacation. I haven't slept in that late for a very long time and it felt gooood.

I was thinking that only people who spend their time as if they're always half on vacation can have such a good time doing nothing more memorable then simple being together and building close friendships. At least it seemed that way for me in the past. Perhaps only extremes can get this way. Extremely worked out and stressed or Extremely lazy. Ok wait..I'm not calling my friend lazy! She's not. I am :) hehe..

Anywho..we watched the end of Braveheart that day and then they drove me home :). I'd better get going to do school now..hope you liked some of what I had to say..sorry I've been out of the knack a little and need some brushing up on my English and writing skills...

Adios!
Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

I don't want a Relationship, I want a Friend.

If I were to explain this it would easily be explaining things that are my secrets :). I just stumbled upon this sentence late last night in the clarity of midnight stillness. It perfectly describes everything I've been going through over the past several months..oiy..I'm tired. And I should be doing other much more productive activities.

The 'Duh' Moments in Life

Guitar! I love playing it now. I'm still not very good but I'm improving and that's what makes it fun. Today I finally did the OBVIOUS and went online to look for help on strumming and reading tabs. Now I'm learning how to play the song I'm Getting into You by Relient K!! Yay!!!

I might start telling my daily events tonight as a pre-going to bed thing. I must say this though before I continue on this blog. All the ideas and thoughts or things I say I'm going to do are just brainstorming stuff and I might never continue along them as the point of this blog is to simply write and write in abundance, that's probably why not many people would take the time to read it...but anyway!

Amy Trying again

Signing off



Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

Brainstorming

I know I wasn't going to be on my computer for a while but here I am again. Anywho I'm just dropping a note to tell you I have a ton of ideas for this blog and either they won't even take off the ground or I'll test them out but I hope you find a feature you enjoy.

I've already mentioned one of my ideas but I'm not sure where it will go. Here's a bunch of brainstormed stuff and only the future can tell whether it will actually work or not.

• While I'm in the US I'm going to try and have a daily recounting of what I did from the morning until the evening, a general account of my days activites. Whether you find this interesting or not it's going to be so I can look back and remember my vacation. We'll see how far I get before I am too tired at night to write anything =).
• Another idea is to have a post that starts with a Bible verse/quote/poem or something of the kind and a post that is devoted to delving as deeply as my rather inept mind can on that subject which I choose. XD. I'll probably only write as long as things interest me and therefore some posts might be short and some long. Who knows if I can even do this.
• Another idea is something I've been needing to do. I need to enlarge my vocabulary with a lot of great words. I must start brining them into my stories, into my other writing, and into my conversation. I love big words and I hope this works.
• I'm also going to try and have something to tell you about my latest reads. This should help me keep going with my reading and give you an idea of what my interest are and about the books without spoiling them.

s I have a lot of ideas and these are just a few basic things. I hope to expand and develop this blog as I develop my writing and a capacity to write lenghty amounts in one sitting. I'm learnign slowly and I love this place to be free to delve into it and have at the same time an invisible drive knowing that someone might read this and find a bit of interest in it.

Farewell Fair friends and fiends alike!

Find your way into the light :)

Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

School! Farewell Computer!

Sorry I haven't written in a while but I'm actually just writing this to let you know I'm not going to be on for a while...like a couple of days. I know it's not that long considering how far apart some of my posts are but I'll say goodbye anyway :).

I realized it's only a month and a half before we go to the US and I have a lot I need to get done. I really need to ignore all else and focus on school. Thus I say farewell. Arg I need to stop thinking about Youth so much haha. I gotta get school done!! So much to do! So little time. Goodbye~

Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy