Thursday, March 26, 2009

The Light in the Window

There once was a light in the window
that fell on me in the middle of the evening
it came from one such high skylight
where a sunsets rays could not penetrate
When once I stood on one cabinet up high
what I did see was such a sight
as would make any one lady sigh
yes sigh a sigh of delight

For there trapped in the window
was a fairy of fine delicate figure and form
who once was a midsummer day's light
and all arrayed in such glorious bright

for all fairies are light that once did transform
in a storm on the sea at midnight
into the most beautiful brightly arrayed nymphs

Who with delicate wings
did beautiful things
high in that dark midnight sky
Then the sea was so pleased
it's storm was appeased
and the lightning gave over
it's brilliant blinding light
to robe the small figures

now back to my tale
let me finish but never fail
to tell you the beautiful thing
this little trapped vision did bring
to give him who was to free her
she said this to me, "oh kind sir"
so said her silvery voice
"You have but one choice,
"It would do you no harm
"but quite a bit of good
"to let me free, I'll give you my charm
"and ever should you need
"a helping hand from my kin
"ask but for a little kitten feed
"and whatever you had been
"would be gone and what you would be
"is only the most beautiful thing any could ever see
"for you would be king of the Fay
"though you would not have to stay
"if such a life did not suit
"for not until the third day
"would your life begin to take root
"now let us not discourse
"any longer, as now
"I am becoming hoarse"

For you see
fairies have very small voices
and must shout all they say
when speaking to us bigger blokes
and giving us but few choices

I did not much like the thought
of becoming a king of such little folk
but as I had always been taught
I quickly obliged and hurriedly broke
what held the imp in her prison
and before she had risen
I hoped she would melt away
as in stories so many do not stay
to give such blessings that may just cause
more harm then help and have many flaws

But no she was noble
and that I saw; a crown
did grace her high forehead
and flowing liquid light was her gown
with the soft white of swan down

Her eyes were jewels
blue as sapphire were those burning orbs
now I stood there like a fool
for no longer was she but a tiny fairy
she had grown up and out
until she had all light swirling about
her flowing locks
seemed so filled with shocks
that came from lightning rods

But here I am
getting lost in her beauty
and not going on with my tale
as truly it is my duty

as I was saying
she stood in her grace
and I stood praying
she would turn away her face
before I melted into her grace
and lost my mind in the light
that filled my tower room with twilight
So I stood paralyzed

and she strode-no she floated
for she rode on the wind
as thus she was coated
with stars and sunlight
ask me not how

I so wished to bow
but she held out her hand
to stop me and make me stand
now in soft voice
not much louder than before
she gave me that choice
which now made my heart soar

"You have saved a queen
"This gives you a favor
that you may request
For you are the saver
who is so much braver
when given a chance
to go and advance
But let me ask my query
Will you be my King?
And for you I will sing."

I did not understand
all that she said
But one thing I knew
she was giving her hand
to me to be wed
but why would she choose
one whose shoes
were not only larger than her homes
but his livelyhood too

Had fairies such silly frivolity
to so lower their quality
because of one simple deed
they would forever on lead
a life united with one so common?

I feared so greatly
that for this fair lady
I would need to refuse
so as never to misuse
one of such a higher race
as this one ladies Grace

Then as I opened my mouth to speak
she held up her hand and her head
and looked at me instead
this is what she said in a voice so commanding
it made me shake in my boots
"I can but see your thoughts dear one
"and though you are a peasant's son
"I have watched from afar
and have seen on good star
speak of your dreaming
being much more than seaming
and this we both agreed upon
you have the heart of a nobleman.

And my father from afar
sent me here with a tar
to seek out the man
who could dream like a fairy
and be brave like a wherry."

And so much more did happen
she explained who had trapped her
here in the window
and how it had happened
that he should be the one to save her
so I agreed
to go with her away
to meet with he father and there be wed
and thus become immortal king of the Fay
but that was only the beginning of the day!


It is incomplete but I must end it there. Even though the story has only just begun and can't understand all that I had to say because the rhyming took it in a different direction then I wanted :).

Hope you enjoy it!

Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Epiphany Strikes

I just had an epiphany and I am too thrilled. I can't say to thrilled for words cuz I'm going to attempt at writing it down. God has been merciful and patient with me these past few months. He's been taking me through a situation and all my terrible foolish, sinful, processing heart.

It is very late tonight but I am too thrilled to go to sleep yet. I have been apathetic and disobedient. I am so thankful that God is so forgiving! He is. I love him and I need help to follow him. I can only hope what I have just gained is not something false or fake and cannot happen in real life. I'm wondering, can I pull this off? Can it really be real?

This is the first time anything like this has happened. It makes me excited and feeling giddy and crazy. I just figured something out from my own life in the exact same way I have ever figured something out in one of my stories! I've been living a story! I can't tell you much of it because it's not right for the other people involved in this story to know the whole thing. Yet. I hope that one day I will be able to share it with them.

I had much more to say but this is the only safe stuff haha! Yeah...realized this doesn't actually say anything...ahem If you wish to know the truth behind this post all you have to do is ask. I will tell you if you want to know XP. Just not now and here.

Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Inspired when I least Expect It

Inspiration is a flighty thing. Honestly, I believe it has much of a spirit like a fairy. Come on! It comes and pumps adrenaline through your veins for a time and then thins out and slips away leaving you empty minded and handling a motionless pen (metaphorically speaking of course haha I don't use pens.)

This Week the Trend Is..
Love that song! Don't want to be like it at all!! =S. I need a helping hand to clear the ground before I spread my wings and fly away. Ok so I'm filled with aspiration if not inspiration. I think there are a few things I need to do before I can get out of this rut. One of them would be stop using YOUTUBE. I've been addicted aka I've been watching way too much of it.

Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

Thursday, March 19, 2009

When Busy is Not So Busy

I don't know why I've drifted off from blogging. I really want to get back onto it and write at least 3 times a week. Yeah that sounds pretty good. I'll just try and put down some random thing that suits me for that particular time. And if I can't think of anything I'll just find a topic and write about it. Maybe I'll do a couple Free Types haha..instead of Free Writes..

I guess I've just gotten caught up in my everyday doings that I haven't had time to write them down. Isn't it annoying how when you have the most interesting things to write and the ones you'd most like to remember you are also the busiest and least likely to write any of it down while it is still fresh in your mind? Maybe that's just me but I suppose that's why fantasy worlds don't really exist.

If they did, those who had enough imagination to create them and then get into them would be the only ones ever able to experience them. Because honestly, how many of the main characters in the fantasy novels you read have time to journal all the important interesting and beautiful things they see and experience while in the middle of an intense adventure of some sort? Instead it is a writer's place to experience their story second hand as they chronicle it for the world to enjoy.

My mind has been all a buzz lately. I was planning for my party, working on a skit for Easter, going to a conference, and trying to accomplish at least a small amount of school so I don't finish High School at the age of 19. I guess I've been pretty busy. And what makes me even more busy is just the fact that I'm not used to being very busy and therefore have a lot of a harder time kicking myself into high gear.

Anyway, Signing off here since I wrote this a while ago...

Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

Changing Seasons

Just randomness and a sort of letting go. I hate frivolity in myself, but I'd much rather give something up frivolously then to hang on long past the time it should end. Don't worry if you don't understand what I'm saying. It's not important =).

Seasons do come and go
Readily they fade and take up new dress
is that not what the tree's leaves show?
(Dose this mean they are any the less?)
and so the same are the seasons of a heart
young and fresh and not ready for settling
while hearts flutter in young breasts
whence a person of significance does pass
and then they turn their flighty hearts
back to the skies of dreams and hopes
where another face they cannot see
is waiting for those young
sparrow like hearts to soar
far up and find maturity
and love everlasting
love never ending
and also the one who they were destined for
from all their exterior appearances to their core

Thus we were created
A creator with a purpose
we were meant for Him
until he brings the One
who he created for each individual
to find a perfect fit
where two strangers find they knew all along
that this was the person they were waiting for
and two should find each other as
the only One for them
and there you have it
a pair becoming one
to begin a life filled with love
and struggle and pain
but is it not worth fighting for?

Random doodles.. Raw and roughly written in free verse I guess.. Some of you might understand part of it but if you don't then it doesn't matter =). Like I've said before I'm just posting it as it is...

Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Resolutions, Dreams, Hopes

Here's a list of a bunch of my wannabe resolutions.

  1. Spend more time with Jesus the one who loves me beyond all my deserves.
  2. Obey him more.
  3. Guard my heart from falling in love. I'm way to young anyway..
  4. LOVE HIM
  5. Be obsessed about Him
  6. Wean myself off of Youtube and... him. I'm obsessed about those things..(oo different hims by the way..hehe)
  7. Go to bed early and get up early
  8. Not to swear
  9. GET A TON OF HOMEWORK DONE
  10. Write all the important details on my story!!
  11. Spend more time with my friends!! YEAH I REALLY DO LOVE YOU GUYS! I WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH YA'LL!
  12. Spend more time following artistic pursuits.
  13. Dream about my future
  14. reaaadd a ton more!
  15. Encourage people a ton more
  16. Say thank you whenever complimented
  17. Not hide the way I feel so much because I'm afraid of what they're going to think..
  18. BECOME DISCIPLINED
  19. Learn how to stop going to Youtube until I never go there again.
  20. Gain stamina and strength
  21. Enlarge my vocabulary
  22. Live with passion and boldness
  23. Live out my dreams
  24. Discuss philosophy with a couple different people
  25. Get to know my brothers better
  26. Hang out with my mom more!
  27. stop thinking about him...
  28. Stop spending *ahem* WASTING so much time on the Internet
But there's one major one that I'll set appart because I really want to accomplish this one and it's quite relevant.

Go to the US and when I return to Malaysia, to come back with an unfettered heart for God alone and without any feelings for any particular guy anywhere in the world.
In other words.
~*(-&-)*~
Crushless.


Sorry I can't write any more. I have tons more resolutions and aspirations but I'll have to save that for another time! This is an old post anyway. Haha! I posted a ton of posts that I wrote a while ago today which is the 31 of March.

Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Interesting day.. and Lead Me

This is the first picture I've uploaded to my blog yay!!! haha celebrate! No more drab posts! BTW this is a picture of Saray and myself haha.

First off I'd like to say two things.
I'm super sorry for not writing for so long! I have been very busy and just haven't gotten around to it. Secondly this is going to be a short post because I need to get to bed so I can start a new day tomorrow. (I'm on a bit of a time limit so if i cut off it means I need to go to bed)

Today I was someone I am not. In other words I acted not to say out of my character because it came perfectly naturally, but not quite the way I want to be. Again to rephrase that, I did not accomplish everything I would have liked to in the day and I go to bed with a sense of unfinished work, not fully proper way of being (ok that doesn't make sense but this is random stream of thing). I want many things I didn't get and feel like I lost something.



Ok I've discovered several things today. One of them is we sometimes have hidden talents. Another one is that when you write something there is a lot of context that is left only to the mind of the writer. But let me tell you about the first one. My friend from Argentina who is currently living in Indonesia came to stay at our house. Today I was telling her about how I want to be a writer, and suddenly she said,

"Oh Amy, write a song! I have the chords for a song so let's write one."

I was very reluctant and kept saying, "No, I can't write that! I'm no good at it."

Which is still quite true haha. I had no idea how to do it, and didn't think I could get anything to sound right. But she started playing the chords softly and I just wrote what came to mind. Then, Miracle of miracles! She put a tune to my random words and made them sound like a song! I was amazed! I think she's definitely got a gift for this.

So she started singing through it and got all excited about it. By now I was getting quite excited myself. Do you know how if feels to have words that you just splatter across a page turn into a tuneful melody?? Well, I did and it felt pretttttyyy goood hehe.

Anyway we worked on it for several hours and it is still very far from perfect but I hope to video record the song and post it up on Facebook. I'll put a link up if we do. For now I'll just put the half of it, which is the words. Honestly, though, it sounds a lot better as music.

There is no poetical meter to it but with a tune it's actually a song! I'm still quite amazed. Also, a bit of explanation about the song. The meaning behind it, although only figured out halfway through the writing goes along these lines. It is a love song to God speaking a little about how we want to live for him. A little bit of a story (not from our own personal experience as many songs are. But a lot of songwriters tell stories not their own. Ok I'm not putting myself in that category! noo, very far from it.) about searching for the One, or love and not finding it.

So it could double as a love song but it doesn't really..anyway. The part about the desert is our struggles and fight to mature in our relationship with God until we can find that place of rest with him, kinda a place impossible to reach so I guess it could be heaven. But really it's a place where we are deeply in love with God and on the right path, doing His will. Well..actually just see what you get out of the song yourself la..I'll leave it up to God to show you what he wants from it. Only other one I know is that the place across the ocean is like the Mission field ;).

Without further Ado, Lead Me by Saray and Amy

Intro?/Verse 1:
I know the truth
And I know I’ll find you someday
and here I am standin’
findin’ truth where I was looking
for so long

And I know you’ll find me
and take me by surprise
Then you’ll come right in
and take me by my hand

Chorus 1:
Lead me through the desert
to that other side
where dreams come true
where dreams come true
In that oasis
In that beautiful home
where I live for you
I live for you oh Lord
where I live for you
I live for you alone

Bridge:
As I keep running away
You keep chasing me
and I can’t hide from your loving eyes
cuz I was meant for such a time
for such a place as this

Lead me through the desert
to that other side
where dreams come true
where dreams come true
In that oasis
In that beautiful home
where I live for you
I live for you oh Lord
where I live for you
I live for you alone

Verse 2:
I’ve been searching through the years
but never really seeing you at all
yet you stood by my side
whispering in my ear
those sweet assurances
you are my strength

Chorus 2:
Lead me across the ocean
to that other place
where dreams come true
where dreams come true
that new land
That fresh sweet home
Where I live for you
I live for you oh Lord
where I live for you
I live for you alone

Strange verse thing..:
I know the truth
And I know you’ve found me
And here I am Standin
Knowing that you love me
have loved me for so long

As I keep running away
You keep chasing me
and I can’t hide from your loving eyes
cuz I was meant for such a time
for such a place as this

Lead me through the desert across the ocean
to that other side that other place
where dreams come true
where dreams come true
Where I live for you
I live for you oh Lord
where I live for you
I live for you alone for you alone

End Chorus thing?:
Lead me through the desert
to that other side
Lead me across the ocean
to that other place
Where dreams come true
Where dreams come true
Where I live for you

(Yes I know the Chorus repeats but oh well..I'll fix it to be more like a song thing later..)
I'll say it now, very unprofessional I know..but hey, it's our first song and we thought of it today.
haha it's alreadly past the time I was going to finish so, Goodnight!
Adios!

Your's (The Lord's) )Truly!(.
Amy

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